Cuantos Fat Chunks Han Perdido This Week?

I lost one single fat chunk. Glad I posted yesterday, but meanwhile I'll take that fat chunk and like it.  Totes insane at work, and PMS for miles up in here.

Here's to a pristine week and more Fat Chunk murder.

Moving in the Right Direction/Homer's Mumu

Won't have a new weight to track until tomorrow, but I feel like sharing since overall I've had a week to be pretty proud of and I want to talk about it before I know what the scale reads.

So yeah last weekend I wrenched my back somehow and ended up taking Tues and Thurs off work; mostly to escape the 60+ minutes each way to work. It started getting better and I took a few short walks, worked Friday, and yesterday had a relatively lazy Saturday. Today I went down to the beach bike path with my brother and biked for over an hour WITH A SLEEVELESS 'performance tank' on... and felt just fine about it. Pretty sure my upper shoulders haven't seen daylight since 2006, but everything was, well, just fine. They're large, lumpy, freckled, and helped me move myself down the strand today.

Part of the 'courage' it took to go ahead and wear a tank top in public (and believe me I know there's a whole lot more in the world to be worried about than upper arm fat) was the hilarious realization that a nightgown I purchased at the Avenue last week looks way, way too much like Homer's mumu.  Check it out:

And:

Not carbon copies, but seriously. Anyway, I'm not real sure what kind of loss I will post tomorrow. Today's long bike ride will help, but I won't be shocked if I lose a few ounces or drop 4 lbs. When you're home from work and can only lie down (sitting was killing the lower back), it's tempting to just snack on anything that's close by. I didn't have the low, low calorie week I wanted when I finished last week, but I tracked every day and I stayed very low carb. The main thing I'm feeling right now is momentum; it's back and I'm excited to keep logging into myfitnesspal, happy to WANT to come blog about my day rather than sheepishly apologize for being MIA, and generally all of that just makes me feel good about myself and the future.

If I were a real hardcore blogger, I would have taken a pic of myself with the bike and the tank top, but I'll save those for when I have some comparison shots. Meanwhile, here's a new picture I took yesterday and I think it sums up how I'm feeling in my skin right now:

Enjoy the last of your weekend; I'll be back tomorrow with a weight update!

Soooooo.........

Did the thing for a whole week. Weighed on in. Lost two lbs.

Logged daily- averaged about 2200 calories and about 30 carbs.  Got on the elliptical once.  Drank, well, daily. By cutting alcohol I'd be down to like 1700 per day which is really where I want to be.

I'm really glad I'm stitching together some progress again. This post should be funnier, more insightful, more passionate...please forgive me. Threw my back out late Saturday and I've been in serious pain ever since. Today I went in to work and the sitting killed me.  The drive home was especially bad and no amount of advil will help.  Anyway,  while walking around wincing and moving all gingerly is no fun,  I know it will pass. I also know I'm going to lose a few more pounds this week.

Happy Monday, friends.

quick reminders to self:

Low carb works.

I don't have to have wine every day.

October is coming.

One Foot in Front of the Other! (or...Hump Night Scrawlin')

Delivering on my own promises- it's a good feeling.

Last few days have gone thusly: low carb shake or BPC for breakfast, and then breadless cold cuts or bunless burgers for lunch, salad or protein pile for dinner. I won't lie; I've been having a few nighttime drinks but I'm religiously tracking on MFP. Tomorrow I'm getting some keto stix at CVS but I'm pretty sure I'm back in or very close to ketosis. Yesterday I got a sandwich from the work cafeteria and threw away the bread- bread in the form of a delicious freshly toasted baguette btw. Bye, Felicia Baguette- not interested. Today was 30 carbs 6 fiber grams. Calories have been just 'okay', not on track to lose a lb per day- more like 3 lbs per week. I do plan to step my shit up with some intermittent fasting in a few weeks, though.

4 full days until I weigh in again. If you're not a detective who noticed the sidebar weigh-in dealio, I did go up another two lbs since my birthday. I don't exactly consider that a triumph but it's still nice to be 'down' 12 from the beginning of the year and 18 from my highest. I want to see that progress bar grow. Right now trying really hard to take this a day at a time, but I can't help but target a holiday season in the 200s. It's been a long time since I've been there and I cannot WAIT.

If you have a lot to lose and you're considering low carb/high fat, this woman's story on the Diet Doctor website is really great. She's calm, she's healthy, and she's maintaining her weight loss by eating 85% fat every day.  Crazy amazin'.

Enjoy the rest of your week!

Tired of Trying? Nope!

Another two months has passed since my last post. Thank you so very much for anyone who stopped by this Spring/Early Summer- especially Kaki, Nanette, and Leigh. The thing about the weight loss blogging world is that I know that you all *know* what I'm going through, and I feel like it's okay to keep coming back. I've also matured enough to realize that wiping out my blog (despite what one could objectively call failure over the last three years) is not the move here- when I have the pleasure of adding my 'After' pictures, I plan to tell the whole boring story.

SO what's happening? The short answer is 'the usual'; the longer explanation is I've been working long days and not taking very good care of myself. Some days were low carb, but more days than not in the last 4-6 weeks involved not only carbs but the shameful, convenience-store foods that I eat alone in my car or at my desk- pop tarts, donettes, candy. When I eat lots of sugar I'm tired all the time and wake up with dry mouth and nausea that's similar to a hangover- and so 'hair of the dog'-style, I reach for more sugar/carbs to stop those feelings. Vicious cycle. I am an addict and I'm ready to cut off the supply.

Yesterday was August first and I am especially aware of the events I'm attending over the first three weekends in October- a work trip Oct 1, a wedding in San Diego on the 10th, then Vegas for a 40th on Oct 17th. There's a lot I can do over the next 8-9 weeks to put myself in a much better place mentally and physically. At all three events I'll be meeting new people and dressing up- two things that are not as fun when you're too large for your nice clothes and you're feeling crappy about yourself.

August 1 was a new day one, but I skipped the scale. Tomorrow I start a series of Monday AM weigh-ins; I need to incorporate more accountability so I will do it once a week, Weight Watchers style. Yesterday, I ate bacon and eggs, cheese, pork shoulder, guacamole, broccoli slaw, an ear of corn (18 carbs), a low carb tortilla... and I drank a bottle of wine. I also walked on a beach trail for over an hour in Palos Verdes. I have a feeling that when I weigh tomorrow, I will be up since my birthday, but I woke up today feeling better than I've felt in three months. Yesterday's menu wasn't keto but it was lower carb, I logged it, and it was a good start. Today will be even lower, I'll keep logging, and I'll get outside again for another hour.

See you tomorrow.

I turned 39; Didn't Gain it all Back... A mid-2015 Check-in

So. On my 39th birthday (May 28)  I stepped on the scale for the first time in 2.5 months. Officially only up 6 which proves that I was exercising a little bit of restraint from time to time. Of course for my b'day weekend we went up to Solvang for wine tasting and indiscriminate carb eating. This past week at work I did not plan well and ate out too frequently. Long story short, I'm prooobably up a few more...and because I know that and I know myself I'm waiting until June 28th to weigh in again and then the plan is to weigh myself every 15 days through the end of the year.

Recap: since Jan 1, I'm holding onto a 14 lb loss. Since I started this blog a few years ago when I was at my personal maximum density, I'm down 20 lbs.

Goals: 10 lbs a month need to go.  I am turning 40 in roughly 355 days and I'm ready to live.

June is month 6 of 12 and it just started. I've procrastinated my whole damn life and this whole follow low carb, stick to it, and reap the benefits of better health, digestion, fitness, etc- well it's not too late for me to have a big old net loss by the end of the year. It's never too late- take a look at this guys success story if you have a minute. Visit Poonapalooza's page and check out her before and after shots, check out carbtripper or Kaki or scroll through the DietDoctor page for people who have made this lifestyle work.

Today Adam (husband), Kevin (brother), and I got on cruiser bikes and took a nice ride over to Hermosa. We got lunch and some beer, but also some sun and much-needed exercise. Kevin has been low carbing since the beginning of the year and is going on almost 70 lbs lost while Adam and I have been floundering. The (not) hilarious part is that we were the ones to 'sell' Kevin on keto/low carb after he was at first skeptical. The 300-400 lb experts have yet to fully adopt our own advice. That said, there's a 'readiness' in the air right now and I feel like Adam and I both are tired of the excess.

Here's to another Monday clean slate. Finding the strength to focus on right now while leaving past failures behind starts in your head not your mouth - and I came here tonight to start getting my head right. Thank you as always to anyone who is still reading; I appreciate it and cannot wait to share the joy of more success.

May 9th

21 days since my last post.

I keep eating sugar.

I didn't weigh in on May 1st.

Today I started my day with 2 eggs, bacon, and a coffee.

Today I will not eat sugar.

All I can do is keep going.